This post is rather terrifying for me, but I wanted to add this component to my blog for a few reasons. I’m not even sure where to begin, but I am excited about it! A year ago, I started this blog because 1) I love all things girly, and 2) I really wanted to get over some of my self-confidence issues. I have some of the lowest self-esteem you will ever find in a person. It’s hard writing that, but it’s true. I’m 32-years-old and I’m so sick of the words of other people mentally holding me back. To be blunt, I was ridiculed, teased, and bullied for most of my life about not just how I look, but who I am. Not just by peers either, but family members, which is what sticks with me now.
Anyway, enough of that sob story. My job is stressful and more pressures are being put on us all the time. I need some kind of control, some kind of release in my life. I want to be healthier. I just want to feel stronger mentally and physically. I don’t want to be in my head ALL. THE. TIME. You don’t even want to know the things going on in there.
I love makeup because it makes me feel good about myself; it gives me confidence and it is just plain FUN to play with, right? I’m comfortable without makeup too of course. Still, no amount of makeup can change how healthy you are, and being healthy is a huge part of being beautiful; mentally, and physically.
After mulling over some different ideas for a theme day, I’ve decided to make Fitness Friday a regular feature on this blog. I want to be stronger and happier. I have an amazing husband who deserves for me to be the best me I can be! Seriously, I am madly in love with him (did I mention he is hot and smart? Well, he is. And kind.). I owe it to him to save my own life. I owe it to me to combat all of these demons inside of me. I’m having an OMG-I-can’t-believe-I’m-saying-this-out-loud moment right now, but yeah.
Mental illness runs rampant in my extended family. To coin Mariel Hemingway’s term, I’m “running from crazy”. Literally. I’ve decided that to get out of my head and feel some control over my life, I am going to get back into running. I was quite the athlete until I went to college. I was in all kinds of sports, ran track, have newspaper articles about my baseball skills, and have plenty of ribbons and medals from those days. I almost broke the school’s discus record (dammit…3/4 inches short). I can do this. I HAVE done it.
I have declared August my month of change. It’s my husband’s birthday month, it’s the month before my favorite season, and why not now? My first plan of action was to of course get cuter workout gear. It’s much easier to do something when feel good in the clothes, right? I bought two shirts and ordered a pair of leggings so I don’t kill myself by tripping into a river or something on my yoga pants. 🙂 Believe me, there will be plenty showing the cute things in these posts. Plus, one of my new shirts is PINK!
So far so good, despite being only two days in. My goal is to run 20 miles this month. Not very far, but a gal has to start somewhere.
My plans for Fitness Friday include:
- How the running is going
- Adorable workout outfits/gear (because looking cute is of utmost importance)
- Maybe some nutrition stuff
I truly hope that this is something that will help someone else, and it will hopefully help ME stay faithful to my goals in between all of that eyeshadow and lipstick wearing. 😉 This is so terrifying to put out there for the world to see…because as I type this, I hear “you can’t do it” from all of those people who pushed me down with their hateful words.
Any thoughts? If you made it to the end of this, thank you for reading. I really appreciate it!